Sometimes things in life are crystal clear to me the first time I come across them. Other times patterns and ideas and my own personality are muddy and hard to understand. Sewing has taught me that if I don’t understand what went wrong in a seam or a quilt the problem probably started right at the beginning with a flawed pattern or a badly measured block.
Applying sewing to life, when I don’t understand something maybe I need to go back to the beginning and rethink the first assumption I made and see if then I can understand the outcome.
Here is an example:
This is my garden. Sad weedy place that it is. I always thought that if I had more time my garden and flower beds would look great. If I had more space I would create a garden paradise. All it would take was a bit more dedication. The assumption I’ve always had was that I love to garden. My sisters are master gardeners. My mom has always gardened. All the characters I’ve admired in the hundreds of books I’ve read have loved to garden. I love to read and everyone I know who loves to read also loves to garden.
Last year I had an epiphany. I don’t like to garden. The reason I don’t spend time in the garden is because I don’t want to. I don’t like getting dirty. I don’t like bending over, or sweating in the sun, or swatting bugs or getting pricked by thorns. How could I be so old and not know something so basic about myself?
An unexamined life is not worth living…… That may be a bit extreme but worth reflection.